However, I also genuinely don't understand why people can't just be nice and say nice things. I have a lot of not so nice thoughts in my head but most of them stay there or are saved for conversations with my husband where I need to vent.
I have good intentions with the things I do or say, but it is not always taken that way. I keep a lot of the judgements I am thinking to myself, but sometimes they come out.
I really do have genuine care and motive behind helping other people. I enjoy doing nice things. I'm the friend that others walk all over because I let them.
If I come off as a know-it-all it is because I REALLY DO feel like I have a good solution or idea and I really do want to help and I can't stand when there's a better way to do something- wouldn't you want to know if there was!? At least that's what goes through my head, and then I share my ideas but apparently no one wants to hear it. I am constantly trying to keep my mouth shut. And to those of you who know me, I know you're thinking,
"Yea, right! She never stops talking! And always says what she's thinking"
Well, trust me, there are ALWAYS more things I want to say that I don't.
Today I had a lot of judgements going on in my head. And I want so badly to list them all right now and have you all read them and say how you know someone who does the same thing and it also drives you nuts or makes you ask "what in the world..."
But I'll keep my mouth shut for now.
Writing this post has not really helped me to resolve anything like maybe I had hoped it would. Maybe another day I'll write about this again and see where it goes.